I can’t do anything but sit in awe.

I want to love people with the love that I have deep in my heart.  I feel so much joy, and I most certainly can’t contain it.  I need to share it.  And I hope I do it accurately and to the full extent.  I want to know others, and make myself (and Jesus) known.  I don’t want people to see me as a “Holy Warrior,” because I am weak.  I am nothing.

I want the trials and challenges, I want the fear, I want the uncomfortable life.  I want to live an extreme life, that I might not miss any opportunity.  That I might live to my full potential in Christ.  I have been blessed, and I want to bestow those blessings to those around me.

So many uncertain things in life.  I have a girl I like, she is missional– I don’t know where it is going (I have an idea), but I am excited to see if this is something that God wants.  And I pray each day that it would be His will, not my desire.  I also don’t know where I will live, where I will work, etc. in these coming years / months.  I don’t know if I will be doing ministry, or seminary, or missionary work…  I don’t know where my friends will be, I don’t know if I will be alive tomorrow.  But I do know that my purpose is to live life.  My purpose is to love.  My purpose is driven by passion for a fire inside of me.

Lets go.  What kind of love.